Running (Away)

There are many kinds of running. One is like No Doubt's "Running" in which one is running all the time, running to the future, holding the hand of your loved one so you don't get separated. Another kind is the one I'm familiar with in the course of my studies. The pursuit of the paperchase. Running with the rest of the mice in a rat race. Running so hard sometimes I become tired and fatalistic but not being able to slow down because of the system. Running away from problems, everything, everyone, the world aka escapism is yet another type of running. The last kind is real physical running.

I was never a fast runner. I'm still not. But over the years, I've trained up my stamina and speed. I am definitely a better runner than before and have come to enjoy jogging which I never did before. Is this a sign that given the choice, I'd run away? Maybe I'm reading too much into my emotions and/or mind.

Sometimes, I am so aweary of the world I just want to run away. Like Everclear's "Wonderful", "Some days, I hate everything/I hate everything/Everyone and everything". I'd like to shake off my past, shake off everything and everyone in it, shake off the world. Sometimes, I feel like Linkin Park's "Runaway": "I wanna run away/Never say goodbye/I wanna know the truth/Instead of wondering why/I wanna know the answers/No more lies/I wanna shut the door/And open up my mind".

Have you ever felt like running away? I know I'm not the only one who feels like running away when the world seems too heavy a burden. Em said after running away, we've to come back and face the problem. I guess there are only certain places where you can find solace, where you can hide away and the world can't find you. Maybe "running away" doesn't mean "running away" from the world but from yourself. One can never run away from himself or his shadow.