Living, Leaving, Dying, Parting (生离死别) V

I'd said in "Heartache/Heartbreak", "I'm sorry I had to leave behind 一些值得珍惜，值得想念，值得疼的东西。" And so, I went back to see X and Sweet again. Sweet was stunned for a while when he saw me. As for X, she felt I'd never left her. But now, here I am again, in sunny little Singapore and there is X-so far away from me, I feel. X feels likewise. I wish I've more time with X, that my time is not so limited. 真是"人在江湖身不由己". I wish I can see X again soon.

This time, X only cried when she thought of my leaving. When it was finally time to say goodbye, we didn't cry. I'd told X not to cry when I leave this time. She managed to do it. We both did it. There are times of course, when we were tearful at parting but this time, we handled it better. Sure, we'd miss each other's company and warmth now since we were each other's shadow for this brief blip in time. Where am I going to buy another pair of hands that'll warm my hands in the cold of the winter's chill? X'd better find me a solution.

I told X to forget me when I leave. She stubborn refuses (and got angry at me). 既知相思苦,何必苦相思? Missing someone is hard. I wish life is simpler and it's easier to see X. "So it's cruel of God to let us meet by what he calls Fate and to tear us apart by what he calls Destiny."