Living, Leaving, Dying, Parting (生离死别) VII

Today, I entertain a curious notion. Parting is a part of living. A part of the life cycle. What I don't understand is why people cannot accept parting in that case. For myself and for everyone else, I believe, the closer you are to someone, the deeper the hurt you're going to feel when the time comes for parting. It really upsets me at times even when the situation is not one in which your loved one parts into eternity but the other version of parting in which you know you've to move on with another phase of your life.

Ster said when you see Grandpa, you know his time is nearly up. I feel sorry and maybe I'm trying to make amends for the past so I will visit him before he leaves this world. Though I don't like him, I know I'll feel sorry for him and sad when his time comes. It's very weird because we are not even close and for the bulk of my life, he didn't even exist in my consciousness. And it is so very weird because it is not his children who visit him but his grandchildren who are doing so now. Maybe it came back to him for all that he's done. Life comes back full circle.

I try to live my life as best as I can even though I admit sometimes I don't do well. Thinking of death makes me morbid but I know I've to face it someday. Death really tears people up. How would you feel if you know your close one is dying? I find it hard to imagine it unless it's reality. What can you do actually? Nothing. As always, whatever kind of parting it is, I only ask for more time. Kamisama, mo sukoshi dake.