Dreaming II

In "Red Sky In The Morning", there was a part where Anna dreamt of Ben after he died. Anna woke up crying because the grief felt fresh and raw then. Then she went back to sleep. When she woke up in the morning, she felt normal. The grief was gone.

Elan said the feeling is in-between waking and sleeping. When you are asleep or just woke up from a dream you're not fully awake yet, like you are in a state of drunkedness. Sometimes you are very affected by certain emotions. Then after you wake up fully, the emotions are not there anymore. It is, according to Anna, like "a crack in the wall", and in Elan's words, "a glimpse into your feelings".

When you are asleep or just woke up, sometimes it's not fully awake and things you've dreamt still affect you or you stay in a certain emotion you experienced in your dream. For example, if in your dream, you are sad, you feel the heaviness and sadness; you'll be crying; maybe you have tears in your eyes. When you are fully awake, the feeling's gone. It's like a state of drunkedness. Things that you feel, you say and do are real and not real at the same time. Real because it comes from deep within. Not real because you're not fully in control, you're not conscious of what you're doing. Elan thinks that it's part of our subconscious. Elan said in Anna's case her grief is real and maifests this way. It is a way for her to also get over it by expressing it-in a dream state. Elan said that in such cases maybe one should think about what he felt and what it meant instead of brushing it off like a lot of people do. When you're subconsciously expressing something it tells you about yourself...more than what you can see in real life consciously. Because when you're doing it consciously you may choose to repress a certain part of yourself. For example maybe in front of your enemies you don't want to show any weakness, so you show a very strong exterior. But it doesn't mean you have no weaknesses at all. Consciousness is a choice.

I wondered about recurring dreams of a loved one dying/who's dead. I feel it's grief, part of grieving, of the mind trying to let go in the form of dreams. Recurring dreams probably means that one can't let go of the death. Elan thinks complicated. She said it's very weird. Some people think it's paranormal. Some people see it as grief or remembrance.

Elan is such an intellectual friend I think if I die before her, I'll just continue those mental challenges, verbal sparring, intellectual debates/discussions by coming back as a ghoul in her dreams. Haha.