Acting

I can't remember who said this: "We never really grow up. We just learn how to behave in public."Yes, we are all actors of our own lives, masters of our fate, heroes of our own stories. We write our scripts and direct our movie.

Tuesday-14/3, CP amended a Defence in which the Plaintiffs sued the wrong party and named the wrong person in the suit. She didn't give them any information as to who the correct parties are. Just plain and simple. Short and sweet. No bad feelings when she signed it either. I thought the lawyer on the other side was her friend. CP said she is only a friend when she's wanted as a friend. She said she's dealing with lawyers here and she's to cover herself and be a wolf in sheep's clothing. I was horribly fascinated, in part due to my naviety. I know that the world is not so innocent and all is not what it seems. Still, to see/hear it firsthand from those who are in the battlefield gave a real feel to it. I mean, I do lie and I can lie through my teeth when the situation calls for it but if it's personal, I get all uneasy lying. Sometimes, you meet unpleasant people in the course of work and you are forced to smile at them/be polite to them. But when you put down the phone, their backs are turned, you lambast them to smithereens (and God help them to find their bodies).

I am not a good actor and never will be. If I try to hide my feelings, it's like 鱼骨哽喉--不吐不快. I find it tiring to smile at others when deep inside, I'm yelling, shivering, crying. If one only has a fake smile on his face, very soon that fake smile will be plastered on his face. Why can't we go back to the good o' days when people regard honour as more important than their lives and your word is as good as gold?There was more trust, less suspicion and people were more at peace with themselves. How many of us have to take off our masks when we get home from school or work? We treat outsiders one way and family another. We look at ourselves in yet a third way. I wonder how many wolves that scheme and plot in sheep's clothing are truly happy.

When the day is done and events in our lives are played like a reel of film, what will you be thinking then?