Tuesday, June 13, 2006

Bondage

Since ape men appeared, they've learnt to hunt, to tame, to cage beasts. As time passed, they dominated their own kind and enslaved them. Such barbaric acts are now condemned by hopefully, a more civilised modern world. We only "cage" or jail people when they've done wrong. There's also the sado-machism bondage where chains and whips and violence are used for a twisted pleasure.

There's another kind of bondage called emotional bondage. This kind of invisible ropes that bind you are as powerful as any other physical types of bondage.

I've tried to get rid of some ghosts of the past but they haunt me. I wonder if and when I'll be able to sever those damned ties.

I was helpless to the admiration/infatuation I had for Lee Young Ae earlier on. I'd wished that I could get rid of the senseless infatuation because I absolutely hate losing control of myself. But now, I can laugh at myself for succumbing to unrequited love.

Bondage can be voluntary or mandatory. I'm bound to my parents. Bound by obligation. Bound by a sense of filial peity. Bound by a responsibility to take care of them when they are old. Bound (unwillingly) by a calling to please them at the expense of what I stood for.

Although most of the time, bondage is equated to control, it may not be the case all the time. People may suffer under an invader/occupier/oppressive regime but their hearts that yearn for the priceless ideals of freedom and independence will never be captured.

1 comment:

marionette said...

Lee Young Ae is lovely. Hahahaha. I didn't liked her a while ago. I preferred Choi Ji Woo But now the more I look at her I think she's beautiful.


She's worth looking at. A bit on the "si1 wen2" (i.e. too polite, gentle/ sensitive) side but she's got very nice eyes.