Sunday, June 18, 2006

Death

I'm coming in touch with death often these days. First, it was Mimi who witnessed the accident where the girl (passenger) in a car had glass bits in her mouth and the boy had an open gash across his throat. The Mercs driver who caused the accident was trapped in his Mercs and the firemen had to saw open his Mercs to get him out. Next, it was KC's mother-in-law whose wake I attended. Then it was Nice's friend who got flung out of the back seat of the car she was in. The driver and the front seat passenger only suffered minor injuries though.

It was Nice's friend's death that made me FEEL the frailty of life. That humans' lives can be snuffed out so easily. Although Mimi'd told me that the accident she witnessed brought that point home to her, I didn't really understand/feel what she said till Nice started talking about her friend. The friend had an illustrious life: chairman of so and so club and great results. Alas, death decided to claim her too soon. What a waste and pity of a promising future!

4th Aunt said: "是她的命" because only she died but the other 2 in the car survived. Was wondering in the case of Mandy's brother's friend where he swam out to save someone and gave up his life in the process, is it also 他的命?

Ster said that precisely because life is so vulnerable, she will not let go of any opportunity. But how many of us are/can really be like Ster? For many, it's a wait for calmer seas before we dare swim out to the sea. And before we know it, the greater waves of death have claimed us and our lives are over. If I die today, I shall regret all the things that I've always wanted to do but haven't found the courage to embrace; I shall regret the times I was mean to the people I love.

Christopher Pike has said in 1 of his books: "Death is not the end. It is only a transformation." Maybe it means that I'll be transformed into a soul from my human form. The essence still lingers then. I don't know. Don't know what I'll be transformed into but I hope it'll make me a better person in my next carnation.

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