Education

Elan was attacked by the give-up virus again. Elan said: "The reason why I am feeling so stressed over school is because I don't enjoy studying. So I must find a way to enjoy it. I can't vouch for not feeling panic once more. But right now what I think is, I must make it a natural rather than a forced act. For me studying now is a forced act. Like I'm born to do it. So that I won't feel the stress."

I cannot say I am much better than Elan for I have been suffering from sleep deprivation. Every time I open my mouth, I talk about sleep and I sound like a broken recorder. Sleep is such a luxury. It is a truth I've subscribed to since my Sec school days.

I was so sick of school earlier that I just wanted to get out of school. The feeling of running away is what is familiar to Elan and I. Thank God I had somewhere to run to. Thank God for small favours.

About the "give-up virus", I have also been afflicted by it albeit in a minor way. I have given up on the Soc Sci forums. They have just gone plain crazy. Period.

There's also the lack of time in Uni. I do not seem to have enough time to do the things I want now. I wish I've more time to spend on things I want to do (or sleep more) but I can't help but say that Uni is sucking the living daylights out of all of us. I always feel tired, either mildly or more. Can't believe it whenever my alarm clock rings. It is without fail that I take 10 minutes to roll out of bed after the alarm rings. Kamisama, Mou Sukoshi Dake! [God, Please Give Me More Time!] Wanted to study after lunch yesterday-30/9 but I came into the room and plonked right onto my bed and slept for 3h straight. I must really be tired. I seldom, if ever, sleep 3h for a nap.

I have got sick of school. I am so tired of, from, because of school that I look forward towards Friday every week. Initially, I only started asking "When is the weekend coming" from every Wednesday. Now, I ask that question from Tuesday, when the week has only started. Oh god! I need to get a life. I'll be thanking my lucky stars and all the gods and a couple of lesser known deities at the end of this 4 years if and when I manage to survive it.

Why has the education degenerated to this? Education should be fun and fufilling, enriching one's life. Instead, it has turned into a demon with effective slave-driving tools.

What is education really? Is the Uni degree just a piece of paper which will help me get a good job after this 4 years? Or is there something more to this piece of paper? As I looked at the students mugging away on Wed-28/9 morning on the benches, I asked myself how many of them have thought about what education means to them. What they want to achieve in this 4 years. What they want to achieve out of life. Many of us are so busy focusing on what needs to be done now that we lose sight of what's further (and greater). This piece of paper cannot and should not be just a piece of paper that provides job security. This piece of paper cannot and should not be a means to an end or an end itself. Rather, it should be the means to another means.

I re-evaluated what this 4 years of Uni life will mean to me and know that there has to be something more to education that that piece of paper. I'll be shortchanging myself if I don't get anything out of this 4 years other than a piece of paper. It is time to stretch and grow. To learn as much as I can. To get more than knowledge-life skills which I can carry with me for life.