Living, Leaving, Dying, Parting (生离死别) IV

It is only when we realise that someone we love is going to leave us that we feel fear, apprehension, pain, sorrow etc.

If I fall in love with someone, afterwhich this person has to leave me behind, I'll blame him/her. "It's all your bloody fault for making me fall in love with you! For making me want to rely on you so much. What am I going to do when you're not around? It's all your bloody fault. Yes, you and you and you. It's all your fault."

The tears that fall then, are a mixture of sorrow at loss and happiness at the times spent. Is it good to know when your time in this world is done? I think not. You scare yourself unnecessarily and the ones around you. I don't know which is better: To know when you are going to die so you can better plan the rest of your days and live life to the fullest. Or to NOT know when your doomsday is and live out the last day without the cloud of fear and worry of the approaching death hanging over you. You decide.

Until we feel that we are truly going to lose someone we love do we realise what we've been taking for granted. But God, I did NOT take things for granted once I realised how precious they mean to me! I do not think the Higher Powers That Be will entertain any bargaining. But if they can attend to my request, I'll be thanking my lucky stars a thousand times over until they burn out. The more I feel that I'm going to lose someone I love, the more I want to hold on. Kamisama, Mou Sukoshi Dake! [God, Please Give Me More Time!]

So it's unfair of you to step into my life then leave me behind, unfair for the Supreme Being to take away people I love even though I DON'T take them for granted, unfair for God to let us meet by what he calls Fate and to tear us apart by what he calls Destiny.